Dear Dave...

so ya got three choices....
A
B
C
A,,, your totally comfortable with, but yet inside there is a really hot fire you keep burning your hand on...
B,,,, not as comfortable with, but there is just something there that makes you so curious you keep coming back to it....
and then C,,, kinda the type of thing that you don't ever expect, or you have a thought about it, and that thought turns out to be completely false....
I find myself being completely frustrated with all these choices in life lately... I can usually just make up my mind and stick with it... are the planets out of wack or what? I thought I just needed to take a break from everything, tried it, didnt work out... still frustrated with choices... All my life I've made them, and I will have to continue too... So what the heck... How do I decide? I need one of those fancy touch phones, and like Melissa, I would ask the tarot... lol...

Dear Dave...

well, nick was moved... way more population.. Makes ya more scared for him.. I guess he didn't pack is box correctly, so they kept a bunch of his items, like shoes, hygiene crap,,, etc... I hope he sticks to himself there.. Still have yet to check the new place out online. I know he has a roommate now, so that should turn out to be interesting...
I wish he would write me back, do I try another letter... my stubbornness won't let me... I know you would say do it... so I should.
I don't know what to do about mom... just don't know what to do... I surely wish there was something that could be done for her... theres just not... just not...
Other than all that heaviness, Simone came home with a really good happy attitude this time... what a relief.... She had a great time in Hawaii... Seen whales, dolphins, did the rip cord and got a sun burn...
Luv u

Dear Dave

well... I am feeling a little anti social lately... I've had all this time off, and yet I've basically spent it alone... I've enjoyed this time.. don't get me wrong, these nights are few and far between. Tonight I am just feeling it... Could of went and had dinner with girl friends, but yet, I am just here... in the beautiful silence... Saturday night will be the last night I have alone... I will go do something... I will make myself . I can do it... I have the power lol...

Dear Dave

well, its been a while again... went back to paper for a bit... sometimes just the action of writing can be theraputic, and other times, I like banging on the key board...

Spring is in the air... I wish I felt like doing more cleaning... Been working on cleaning out the personal aspects of my life... I've learnt a few things about a particular person... You always think you know someone... you may see things in them that you don't like, but you ignore it until the day they hurt you... I've been pulling away from them... sometimes I think its easier, just to never say anything at all about why your not around as much... its like, do I really wanna hash this all out with you AGAIN, or just keep my trap shut and leave you alone...I'm all for the easy route lately... I'm sure there will be a time when its gonna come to blows, but I know who I am (most days) and I will stand my ground...

forgiveness is a funny thing to me...